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:Regard Tanya. I write you in english since want to only you has understood me. Do Not know, why I this does, can I simply want, finally, in all understand. So and затеваю this talk. Certainly, I have preferred that we were met and have spoke orderly, but, probably, there is determined reasons, on which I do not deserve this, only so I can explain that for so much time you has not did not one attempts for this talk though has said that will think and all will say. You want that I itself all have understood, possible, I something have understood, but I wanted to hear all this, rather then get lost in guesswork. Finally, this will fair. I in general did not want you nothing speak and did not build on count you not what plan. I am a realist, but having thought, why and no. Yes and has afterwards heard- foolishly, begin to go on the second way not having tried first. So here is so. The Life in general is recently dared it is necessary me, do not know, than I before she was guilty, well dishes itself: this not understandable, whence взявшаяся love to you, death best my friends and I do not know what else surprise to expect from it. But thought about that that I have a best girlfriend, which always will beside, will help and will support at any minute, spoke me that I not one,but turned out to be not all so well, what seemed on the part of. I have understood all this from the first so to speak not situation idle time. I thought in our friendship all will openly and honestly, but instead of truth I have heard whole only some pretext but I else envied the friends And I not when earlier could not think that you enter with me here is so, what was not a situation, turned out to be I mistakenned Well something I разошелся, this your life, and I have not there is no one right to sail in it, excuse me but I want to understand how do I live further, and on who I can calculate

Greetings Таня. I write to you in English because I want that only you have understood me. I do not know, why I do it, I can is simple I wish to understand, at last, in all. Therefore also I conceive this conversation. Certainly, I would prefer, that we have met and have talked normally, but, probably, there are certain reasons on which I do not deserve it, only so I can explain that for so much time you have made one attempt for this conversation though has told that you will think also all will tell. You want, that I have understood all, probably, I have understood something, but I would like to hear all this, instead of to guess. Eventually, it will be fair. I at all did not wish anything to speak you and did not build on the account you not what plans. I the realist, but having thought why also is not present. And then услышал-it is silly, to start to go on the second way not having tried the first. So here so. The life in general last time is dared over me, I do not know, than I before it was guilty, well itself посуди: this it is not clear, whence the undertaken love to you, death of the best my friends and I do not know what else surprises to expect from it. But the idea on that that at me is the best girlfriend who always will be a number, will help and will support any minute, I not spoke me that one, but there was not all so well as it seemed from. I have understood all this from the first so to say not a simple situation. I thought in our friendship all it will be opened and is fair, but instead of the truth I have heard only any excuse … and I was envied still by friends … And I not when could not think earlier that you will act with me here so what would not be a situation, there was I something was mistaken … All right I has missed, it is your life, and I have no nobody the rights to interfere with it, excuse … but I wish to understand as me to live further and on whom I can count

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Hi! Tanja. I write to you in English because I want that only you have understood me. I do not know, why I do it, I can is simple I wish to understand, at last, in all. Therefore also I start this conversation. Certainly, I would prefer, that we have met and have talked normally, but, probably, there are certain reasons on which I do not deserve it, only so I can explain that for so much time you have made one attempt for this conversation though has told that you will think also all will tell. You want, that I have understood all, probably, I have understood something, but I would like to hear all it, instead of to guess. Eventually, it will be fair. I at all did not wish anything to speak to you and did not build into the account you not what plans. I the realist, but having thought, why also is not present. And has then heard - silly, to start to go on the second way without having tried the first. So here so. The life in general lately laughs over me, I do not know, than I before it was guilty, well itself посуди: this it is not clear, whence the undertaken love to you, death of the best my friends and I do not know what else surprises to expect from it. But the thought on that that at me is the best girlfriend who always will be a number, will help and will support any minute, I not told me that one, but there was not all so well as it seemed from outside. I have understood all it from the first so to say not a simple situation. I thought in our friendship all it will be opened and is fair, but instead of the truth I have heard only any excuse … and I was envied still by friends … And I not when could not think earlier that you will arrive with me here so what would not be a situation, there was I I was mistaken … All right something have dispersed, it is your life, and I have no nobody the rights to interfere with it, excuse … but I wish to understand as me to live further and on whom I can count

Dear Tanya!
I decided to ask internet users to translate this letter in English cause I want only you to understend it . I don't actually know what I'm doing it for, maybe, I just want to make sense of everything. That's why I'm starting our dialogue. Of course, I' d pefer to meet you face to face, but, there must be some reasons that I'm unworthy of it. It's the only explanation I see, cause you haven't been attempting to have a talk for all this time, though you've promised to give me the answer You want me to understand all myself and I may have understood something, but I want you to answer cause I don't want to lose myself in conjectures. At least It would be just. I didn't really want to tell you anything and didn't have an intetntion to porpose. I'm a realist, but, having thought a litlle, I decided it possible.
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Остальное не стала переводить.. .Если ты хочешь, что б это письмо никто не понял если че, то пиши на санскрите или хинди)) .
а так.. на английском запросто можно хотя бы корявый перевод на русский через переводчик получить (если уж совсем английские слова в первый раз кто-то видит и кому-то очень надо это) Это лишнее, друг, не надо) )
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Всё же текст насчитывает более 300 слов, это в районе часа работы переводчика. Не думаю, что многим будет интересно возиться.
И самое главное — Таня точно в достаточной степени владеет английским? А то проект теряет смысл. Лучше вживую, мне кажется. Глаза скажут больше.